Will someone tell my Brain

It's been 3 1/2 weeks I was banded and I have lost 19 lbs. The biggest battle going on is in my brain. It seems to think I need food even if I don't. It's a continuous battle - asking myself if it's real hungry or my mind thinking it is. I guess this will be my battle for the rest of my life.
My friend Misty who was banded on March 17 went back to work yesterday. She is doing well having lost 26 lbs since her surgery. She worries about have time to eat a snack during our 10 minute break. i told her to figure it out before I get back.

Some more good news!

I forgot to write that when I went to see the Endocrinologist last week, he took me off some meds.

I was on 2 meds for HTN-high blood pressure and NOW I am only on one.

My diabetes meds he cut down by 3/4 the dose. It is my goal to be completely off my diabetes meds someday

2 weeek check up

This is my before picture I forgot to include earlier.

I went to the surgeon's office today for my 2 week check up. They said everything looks good. My total weight lose is 14.6 lbs.

They also said I had to wait 4 more weeks to go back to work. I was bummed to hear that.

I am feeling better and am eating solids now. I can barely eat a 1/2 of a sandwich for lunch. I don't know if it's because I am full or lose interest in it after taking 1 bite every 10 minutes.

I am discovering that the whole experience is 80% or more a mental thing. I often find that I think I need to eat and I really don't. I have to get over the scared feeling of not having anything to eat and my sugars falling to low. I have been telling myself- no big deal if that happens you can always buy something if I am not home. Crazy thoughts maybe.

OMG -What Did I do stage

April 3-6
These days were filled with mostly thoughts of OMG- WHAT DID I DO?
I had lots and lots of abdomen pain and my sugars went up and then went down. Best I could do was lay on the couch and sip my Instant Breakfast. I did force myself each day to get up and shower and walk down the street twice a day. I am a strong believer in walking right away after surgery so that is one thing I forced myself to do.

Surgery Day

April 3, 2009

My mom came from New Mexico to help me out after the surgery. We had to be at the hospital at 5:00am with surgery to start at 7:30. I was ready and excited.

Zeke was alittle scared for me. But I don't blame him- since his 6 year old mind just remembers Danny getting sick and not getting better.

The surgery took under 2 hours and I was in recovery for another 3 hours. I was home by

1:30 pm and knocked out. By evening I was alittle more awake and sipping on juice. I could not take more than 1/2 of a ounce at a time. It was about this time I got nauseated. I thought I was close to death as I dry-heaped and was thinking my new band was going to come up out of my mouth. I didnt know whether to hold my abdomen or keep the bag over my mouth.

The beginning of the OMG- what did I do?

Catching up

April 2,2009

Since I didn't get to writing anything on the actual days, I'll just start from the beginning.

April 2 was the day before my surgery so I had to be on clear liquids all day. For anyone over weight, that a hard thing to do. The other thing is you are given a laxative to take at noon. Well, I took my laxative at work . Bad idea- i had to run out and make it home.

Without saying goodbye to anyone. Iam excited and hungry